The Letters to the World

Last Letter

2004-01-04T04:37:00.000+07:00

"Last Letter to the World (Trough This Site)"

Ass. Wr. Wb

Terima kasih buat semua yang udah, lagi, dan yang bakalan lewat di hadapan gue selagi gue masih dikasih kesempatan berdiri di muka bumi ini. Lagian kayanya udah waktunya seekor Cuxry berevolusi lagi, soalnya udah keliatan jenuh guenya dan emang keadaan harus gitu kayaknya. Tapi cukup gak yah bekalnya? Soalnya "peradaban" apa lagi nih yang mau dimasukin ama gue. Tapi cukup kayaknya mah, soalnya udah tertanam juga kayaknya "Street Spirit" di "pohon."

Gue udah pelajari dua hal lagi nih di sini. Kenapa juga kebanyakan orang cuman mo "didengerin"? Kenapa dia ga ngimbangin komposisi binary dalam "kehidupan" ini. Maksud gue yah kenapa dia gak "dengerin" orang juga yah. Emang susah sih kayanya klo misalnya pengen sama timbangannya, yah paling enggak kenapa kita usaha gitu supaya timbangannya gak keliatan klo emang udah kita akalin.

Terus satu lagi, kenapa susah yah membesarkan jiwa kita? Yah, jarang gitu gue liat orang mo nerima hasil kocokan arisan yang sama-sama diikutin. Ntar, di belakang dia ngomong, "Ah, pasti isinya nama dia semua!" Padahal itu udah pasti salah soalnya yang ngocoknya juga kan tahu dia tuh gak bekal menang arisan sampai dia emang udah bayar semua yang harus dibayar.

Nb: Try some real life, don't go spending your days by sitting on your ass in front of PC. It will be different. Anyway, thanks cyber for giving a little time but meaningful

Dengan Hormat,

(Doni Yunias)

Memories

2003-12-23T19:03:00.000+07:00

Take down the pictures of your minds
Look at the pictures which starts to fade
You used to be my hero
Watching as I learned
You used to wipe the tears from my eyes

All of the memories you left reminds me
That you took a part in my journey
You are the evident of my existence

You used to be my sunshine and I'm the moon
It doesn't matter how bright my light
It's just reflecting your shinning bright

One day, you said "it's over"
And I'm aware you are right

Watch me now
You can see, I'm stronger in standing with one foot
I use the other foot to kick the stupid things I've done

You may rest in peace now
No need to comfort me
Memories of you, covered my heart
Thanks anyway

Oh Man, I'm so Fuckin' Sick

2003-12-22T12:17:00.001+07:00

sori ga ijin!!

lagi suntuk aja ... ga ada temen
aku pengen numpahin disini

ah
ah
ah
...............wait! he dont love you like i love you ..(shit)
yeah yeah yeahs are good for killing energy
in my room
rolling around on the floor
like a drunken rock star
mmmmmmmmmmmhmmmmmmmmmmm
i have no shame

hmm
.....
i told someone
something i thought i would never tell anyone.
about an event in my life.
something that really hurt me.
and i cringe to think about it
because now
ive brought it up

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
"tell me its not true , tell me its going to be fine"
these are the words i want to believe you.
why is my heart so cold.
it needs warming.
im a looser. ..am i?

Nisya Posted This One

2003-12-19T04:41:00.000+07:00

Live in Time of Living
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Everyone knows time
Time is runnin' with no one to be waited
Every beginnig and end has its own time
But no one knows when time has to end

Sometimes, we often see people who laugh in defeating time
Time doesn't cares about it and time is not proud to be time
In fact, when someone has conqure time once
It means he has lost for once too

We're borned in time
We're walkin' in time
We're dreamin' in time
we're changin' in time

We have the same speed of time
But we have different one
The contract of our time

Enjoy your time
Live with it
You have been created with it

You may have my time
But not my life

F***in' and useless Drama
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There is no reason, I'm not takin' all away
I'm just wasting my time here.
See the future waiting
I'm afraid to feel. I have to take much more
This is not the end, more and more
Consume by me. SOMETHING'S GOT TO CHANGE
where is JAMMING CUXRY?
I saw he's dead in you
"HELLO, wake up moron!!!"

2003-12-15T19:23:00.000+07:00

Bahwa lu harus keras..keras ama diri lu sendiri ..lu harus lihai ngadepin hidup...harus pinter cari alternatifnya..jgn mengandalkan apa apa dulu deh klo lu mau sukses.. harus benerÂ² usaha.. harus mau kerja apa aja jangan pilih pilih.. hidup itu keras! sekeras apa lu tanya? keras..banget (brarti ga lembek).. gue ga bisa ceritain dan gue rasa cuman elo aja yang tau betapa kerasnya perjuangan lu nantinya..sampe lu sendiri bisa ngerasain hidup lebih enak..lebih baik ;)

Nisya posted this one

Gerbang Baru

2003-12-13T22:46:00.000+07:00

Tolong Beri Judul!!!
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Sedikit mengeluh dan me-reka2 apaan yang bakalan keinjek ama gue dilangkah2 berikutnya. Lagi males mikir buat postingan soalnya pasti menerawang jauh mungkin sampai ke surga, tapi percuma itu bukan jiwa gue sepenuhnya. Resmi gue lulus dari kampus tadi pagi 13 Desember 2003. Padahal pas jadi mahasiswa itu gue keluar dengan "muka" asli gue. Tepatnya gue hidup dengan "Idealisme" gue kayanya. Bingung, nah itu yg pasti gue alamin sekarang, padahal gue udah ada jawabannya (Iya atau Tidak). Sayangnya klo iya, mau ga mau gue harus siapin "Topeng" di langkah yang baru ini. Lagian kayanya gampang klo cuma gonta-ganti "topeng", nah lagian gue kan bukan gue dengan "topeng" gue ini tapi kita yang ada di "dalam". Nah yg di "dalam" itu kan cuma gue ama sang Khalik doang yang tau. Aduh, mulai so iye dah gue. Bener juga poster di kamar kostan Kemal dulu yg tulisannya: "It Takes One to Know One" (coba pikirin deh, klo penasaran tanya aja penalaran versi gue, tapi itu juga versi gue lho). Klo tidak, di mana tanggung jawab gue ama masa depan gue sendiri? I'm on my own.

So, what are you doing in this darkness?

2003-12-09T23:05:00.000+07:00

Every Saint's Drama
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We just come down from the mountain
Bring the prize for humankind
We have the same assignment
Nothing's really matter for us
Go fuck up with the faith
We could me a trigger for soul
Come to me sweetly, the lost souls
To divide right or wrong
You may know science more than us
But we know science belongs to whom
It's too high to reach up there
Give a message to your fear
Fearing the flame
We are humans
But we miss the ground for all of humans
Not for ourselves

Sindiran Bagi Para Pemimpi
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Keajaiban itu bukanlah apa yang kita pikirkan, melainkan hal yang dapat kita lakukan dalam keadaan sadar.

Mudah-mudahan ini benar
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Hey semuanya, coba lihat jari kita yang sekecil ini mampu menutupi mata kita untuk melihat dunia. Mungkin itu sama halnya dengan pikiran sempit kita yang menutupi realita - realita di hadapan kita.

Corridor

2003-12-07T18:25:00.000+07:00

Today, I found myself alone in the corridor, waiting locked heart
Cause I am hanging on every footprints you left
It could be my endless Hallway
Shall I die in the middle of this line?
Or shall I crawl with my hands bound
I closed my eyes for a while
I began to pray
I hoped you would open the Hallway door
You haven't come
Shall I search you outside?
I wanna do that, but please open the door first

2003-12-06T17:28:00.000+07:00

itu lah..
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Hal yang paling aku tidak suka....
menunggu...ditunggu... dicerugai...diceramahin padahal ga punya salah... di bicarain di belakang2... ditanyain macem2....... dimaki....dan di bohongi...

by nisya

2003-12-05T21:50:00.000+07:00

My Own Reverie
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Well, I have never taken life
I never got an offer before
It's hard to find the answer
There ain't no question here
But thanks to sperm
Now, I'm not OK in the outside
We gotta love each other
Our love will overcome
Now, I wait for you to take my hand
No, no, not only me
But everyone

This is Only a Lips Service for Woman (Ha...Ha...Ha...)
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Forever may not be long enough for my love
Would you come with me to the other side of this life
This love will never enough
Open your heart baby
And everything will be aright
Forever wont be long enough for you to know
How far I traveled, how far I crawled
Open your heart baby
Live with me, Don't be afraid
We can go together now
Love will lead us
We will not be faded
Forever may not be long enough
Forever, forever

A Tribute for Him

2003-12-04T12:52:00.000+07:00

This is my voice's speaking to you. A million thousand of any currency can't buy a second of your time, the time that you spent with me. You thought and added one more color in my life. Sometimes, we know it is hard to get straight with the line that we have been walking. I appreciate every second of "your wisdom." This is a nice piece of you It should to be this way, it should be end for the beginning.

2003-12-03T18:22:00.000+07:00

Kasta Dalam Cinta (seharusnya)
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Seorang sudra menatap indah sang putri ksatria
Ohh, andai dialah sudraku

Brahmana datang menghampirinya
Kau bukanlah engkau yang ada di dalam tubuh seorang sudra
Bodohnya banyak yang percaya bahwa mereka adalah mereka
Itu hanya pakaianmu
Lihat waisya di sana, mereka menjadi topeng para ksatria dan kastamu mungkin seperiuk tahi mereka
Kapankah mereka belajar memberi tangan?
Mereka hanya berucap ini tiupan Tuhan
Jika putri itu telah menjatuhkan hatimu
Ikutilah hatimu, karena itulah kamu sebenarnya
Perbedaan kasta kalian, hanya baju yang akan usang

Arti Hidup

2003-12-01T21:51:00.000+07:00

Lucunya, "banyak orang ngomong namanya juga hidup." Emang kenapa gitu? "Bla...bla...bla..."(full of ego). Tapi emang hidup itu artinya apa? Ga sengaja gue nemu terus ngembangin pendapat tolol lagi. Bahwa hidup itu perjalanan pulang, terus berarti kan pada pulang tuh. Ga tau deh siapa di antara kita yang pulang duluan? (coba Nico, yang pulang duluan bisa kirim surat atau telepon gue kek di sana gimana). Terus emang klo tujuan kita sama, kenapa kita ga saling pegangan tangan aja? klo ga, saling ngasih tau jalan hidup yang bener kek. Tapi inget! kita harus ikhlas klo salah satu dari kita semua udah nyampe.

This is my Fu**ing Ideas

2003-11-22T16:44:00.000+07:00

Life is like a drama, the lights come up, the actors and actress play their roles, the end of film for everyone, They get paid there.

Turn Our Head
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Oh no, too many time walk in black
The song that I sing too loud
Let me down to get closer to get back
My love is too proud

You are the great mystery
Even scientist look like a donkey
You are the most funky
And has the best mercy

I wanna dance with you
In the same song of you
God is just a name
The fact is you are very fame

Days of the Life
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Sunday, dying in the grave
Monday, opened the eyes
Tuesday, woke from the death
Wednesday, walking outside
Thursday, beaten outside
Friday, miss the ground
Saturday, closed the eyes

Rudi (The Best Single Fighter)

2003-11-20T22:31:00.000+07:00

Ga tau harus ngomong apa...isi otakku lagi kosong. gw cuma bilang ama loe Cry...
live your fuckin* life and keep up the fight, karena cuma loe yang bisa ngerubah diri loe sendiri sekarang atau kapanpun seperti yang Sun Tzu pernah bilang "kenalilah dirimu dan kenalilah lawanmu". bila loe mau, loe bisa pake kata-kata itu buat ngejar semua ambisi loe.

Thanks for nothing!!!
(Rudy 'Joe' Andriansyah)

Norms

2003-11-20T00:02:00.000+07:00

Me: I be jealous of you, angel
Angel: He...he...he... why?
Me: You have a nice relation with God
Angel: You have it too
Me: No, I never meet God
Angel: You will, you are stupid, and many humans too
Me: Why?
Angel: It is simple, because in God, humans have much freedom
Me: Like what, because you are perfect angel than me angel, you wear a white clean costume and beautiful / handsome
Angel: Nobody's perfect even me Don't I don’t have passion and emotion
Me: What about humans?
Angel: Ok, I tell you, all of humans are free in choosing their believe to love or hate God or not to believe in God at all, and you know me, I was created to obey all of God's controls
Me: Ooo…

SUICIDE NORM
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An angel flies serving humans
A man sleeps with his hands bounded
An angel stopped facing him
'Unbound this noose, please.'
He points to another angel in the distance
'That is your time.'
'No. I can’t stand again.'
Without sorry the angel continues to fly
'Hey, don’t go!!!'
The other angel flies slowly in the distance
The man stands up and run to jump over the noose
But he falls into a bed of roses
The waited angel arrives and shakes his head

Brother & Sister
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I hope both of you wont regret appearing after me in our park
Only love can keep us together

The Great

2003-11-18T23:12:00.000+07:00

"How Are You Doin'?"

In this life, I'm learning of you and it's great
It makes believe that I'm small
We come to this tree to love you
It just wastes time, if I should run from my faith
No other power that makes this possible
Let me know you closer
I dream of you every night
I want to say thank you, I'm better now
Because of you that care to us
I even don't recognize you physicaly
But still reminds me that you are uncompetitable
Whatever we call you, it just a name
Just a name

2003-11-17T22:22:00.000+07:00

Huh!

2003-11-17T14:38:00.000+07:00

nggak ada yang terlalu istimewa hari ini. Semua berjalan seperti jadwalku. nggak ada kejutan. pada al aku kan suka banget kejutan. Dari siapa aja ..apalagi dari Tuhan. Hidup tanpa kejutan rasanya kok seperti sayur tanpa garam beryodium.
Kejutan. ah aku selalu pengen dapet kejutan..tapi hari ini? enggak ada. Ah udahlah besok toh masih ada hari. siapa tau kejutan itu emng dijatah untuk besok. Ya, siapa tau ..Iwan Fals aja bilang "dalam hari selalu ada kesempatan..dalam hari selalu ada kemungkinan"..dan aku percaya itu percaya banget. Aha termakan lagu itu jg guwa GASWAT man .
..
dan aku mohon kejutan untuk esok hari.. "satu pun cukup Tuhan.."

by : Nisya

2003-11-16T13:09:00.000+07:00

"Can you imagine ??? even a man wanna have sex with him"

"Guess, Who ???"
"Have a right answer ???
"Win a free pass to heaven, by fuckin' with him!!!"

testing aja

2003-11-15T20:41:00.000+07:00

be my sunshine
be my sunshine and do not forget, I want you so badly , you'r lips's are still wet.
I miss all you'r loveing I want more of it, I wait in the shadow's , like when we first met
unstopable loveing I immagine it with you as my lover I wat more of it want
A kiss of envy , a kiss of desire, I lick my lips' for what I will get
i'll make you another
when I think about you thru my eye's are beautiful sight's amongst my thought's to see you right there *smiles*

(Nisya Posted THis One)

2003-11-15T04:50:00.000+07:00

Unconscious is Beauty
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Folks, we meet again with different minds.
I'm blessed with mine and you got yours.
In the same corridor of temporary space.
Your shoulder bumped into mine.
You forgave me, I smiled at you.
You gave a hand when I descended.
I kissed you for thank you.
"Will you delay yor death for me?", I said to you.
"I will, Don."
"Fuck!!!," the energy of Vodka is weaking.
I opened the 2nd Vodka and you came toward me once more.
"He..he...," he was playing with me again.
When I awake, I give him a time to play with angel there.

Dedicated to:
Nico (in the distance)

angelic dream

2003-11-15T04:06:00.000+07:00

stare at the darkly looking glass
touching every inch with delicate tongue
wash it up 'till it shine , brighter than a sun
and if you give your self in, you'll only find your reflection
but we brought in our angel to this simple puzzle
have our mind wondered?
I did talk to this side wings every night I sleep
I did stare at this same darkly looking glass every time i wake
if my angel stands there, I wont cry
and all my sin that i would pay for them ,if I could only..
... touch you ,be your wings
and with this sinfull request I do polish my self dry
with delicate tongue and icy eyes
They put my soul away ,inside the shallow grave
wash away my body from the promises I never made
..and burning out my picture .. my clear mirrored image
and I'm the angel as we talked over this morning vintage
and they the angel standing inside the darkly looking glass

---ipey---

"joan d' arc"

2003-11-15T03:55:00.000+07:00

evil to those who think evil he is.
-ipey-

2003-11-14T00:15:00.000+07:00

Nabiel (The most gorgeous man in Jatinangor) : gw cuma mo ngomong....klo kebanyakan org tuh tai !!! ga' usah so' dah..."WHO REMEMBERS UR FACE...WHO REMEMBERS U WHEN UR GONE!" (mikir dikit ye!).

2003-11-13T12:47:00.000+07:00

2 Kutub Kehidupan
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Cinta berperan sebagai kutub pertama

Karena dengan mencintai kita dapat merasakan cinta

Tapi maaf para Romeo & Juliet itu bukan hanya cinta eksklusifitas yang sekarang ini terlalu diagungkan

Cinta kepada Sang Khalik, Orang tua, Kerabat, dan Semua makhluk yang tercipta di pohon ini

Kutub kedua adalah ikhlas, cinta yang dilandasi sifat ini kan berbuah manis, semanis kurma di saat berbuka puasa

Saya bisa mencintai anda tapi mungkin anda tidak tahu bahwa itu hanya kepura-puraan agar saya dapat keuntungan

Saya percaya bahwa satu hal tersulit di dunia adalah ikhlas, baik menerima atau pun memberi

2003-11-11T23:10:00.000+07:00

Coba pikir deh, gak enak yah ternyata klo udah ngeberesin satu hal. Masalahnya hasilnya kita udah tau. Kaya gue aja sekarang beres kuliah, malah merasa kehilangan satu proses kayanya. Seneng sih seneng karena agak irit gitu orang tua sama guenya, tapi di-pikir2 ga enak. Masalah gue harus biasain diri lagi gak kuliah, bukan berarti gue kuliah gak mau beres. 3 tahun lebih ke belakang banyak banget proses2 yang bikin gue merasa hidup, pas gue gak ada duit lah buat bayar diktat di kampus, ga ada lagi lah contoh kecil proses kaya gitu. Malah ada pendapat yang gila, bayangin deh klo orang masuk surga, apa aja dikasih mana ada usaha/proses, jenuh kali ya di sana? Terus malah ada pendapat tambahan kebayang ga klo orang yang di surga makan buah kuldi, biar pada dikirim lagi ke bumi, serem euyyy, sorry yang baca klo pikiran gue ngelantur soalnya gue cuma tulis yang lewat aja di pikiran gue.

2003-11-09T01:35:00.000+07:00

All the mistakes
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This day I'm not crying for you girl, not even for my parents
I just lost in too many ways
The blurry path is having the thick mist
And I know, the mist is my previous mistakes
And now I,m crying for that mist getting dark
Too late for me to wind the mist
The mist's waiting me there
In my one life to take

2003-11-08T04:28:00.000+07:00

Wise Man : 'You should listen to my voice, young man'
Cuxry : 'I don't need an advice asshole, I need an example'
Wise Man : 'Life must be patience'
Cuxry : 'Patience your ass old man, patience leads us to be intimidated'
Wise Man : 'We have not to make a problem'
Cuxry : 'Hey morron, this is life, the art in overcoming problems, you should been dead if you don't wanna have a problem
Wise Man : 'You too emotional in judging something young man'
Cuxry : 'Poor you grandpa, though people think you are wise but now you are making a stupid and me as a kid is doing a wise thing'
Wise Man : 'Am I wrong?
Cuxry : 'Yeahhh, cuz people are changin'

2003-11-07T17:45:00.000+07:00

Berbicara Fakta Bukan Suatu Kejahatan
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Kapan mo dewasanya yah dunia? Banyak banget orang yang jiwanya kerdil. Sering sumpah di lingkungan yang banyak mempengaruhi gue aja itu terjadi, tahinya lagi antar teman sendiri. Gue orang yang paling sering dijadiin teman ngobrol (curhat lah istilah peradaban babi2 licik ini) sialnya mau ga mau gue sering ngikutin ngejelekin seseorang tapi berpegang pada tips nya Ayam yaitu:Cry, bayangin klo lu di posisi yang salah (yg ini mmpengaruhi utk menjadi pemaaf) trus klo bisa lu sebisa mungkin ngomongin orang sesuai fakta. (makasih banyak Yam). Intinya tuh banyak orang ngomongin orang yang sifatnya mengkritik (mending langsung aja depan mukanya njing!!!) Trus ada orang yang ga bisa nerima bahwa seseorang itu lebih berhasil dari dirinya, ada lagi orang yang ngomongin keprofesionalan (semoga dia tau arti kata itu, jujur klo gue ga tau pasti, yang penting gue cuman berusaha tanggung jawab aja ama kewajiban gue) sialnya dia tuh cuman di bibir, kelakuannya tebak aja sendiri. Apesnya hal ini terjadi dimana gue berdiri, lagian ini cuman teguran sih klo mereka baca blog gue, gue ga kaya dulu sih sering ngomong frontal, sekarang gue nya udah jadi pengecut terpengaruh oleh lingkungan, GUE MOHON MAAF KLO ADA YANG MERASA TERHINA TAPI GUE CUMA BERBICARA SESUAI FAKTA YANG GUE TANGKAP, TRUS GUE NUNGGU SAAT YG TEPAT UNTUK DENGERIN DAN NGASIH ARGUMEN TANPA MAKSUD MENGADUNYA, GUE TERIMA PANDANGAN KALIAN TENTANG GUE TULIS AJA DI SHOUT BOX, ASAL ITU SESUAI FAKTA NGGA JUGA GPP KALI AJA LU KESAL AMA GUE, GUE CUMAN PINGIN KASIH TAHU AJA KLO JGN PERNAH MERUBAH PANDANGAN SESEORANG TENTANG SESUATU/SESEORANG DENGAN MAKSUD MENCARI SEKUTU.

I'm Lost, I'm no guide But I'm right by your side

2003-11-06T15:51:00.000+07:00

Asyik, Dapetnya Eddie Yang Gila

You Are Psychotic Eddie!!!

2003-11-04T03:33:00.000+07:00

The Collections of Ayam's lyrics

AJAL SANG PENDOSA

Ku kan slalu menangis melihat sedih di bumi
Ku kan slalu bersedih melihat sinis di mimpi
Takan terkira jelas di mata akhir nafas mu menjelang ajal mu
Akan terlihat indahnya dosa minim pahala seindah bangkai mu
Ku kan slalu menepi meratap pedih di hati
Coba untuk pahami mendapat senyum yang mati
Semua ku dapat hiklang tanpa sisa menanti
hanya maut tersisa hadir menghibur hari

Written by: NUTRIKA

AIB

Tlah berakhir awal nafas tak mengira tuk nikmati
Kan ternoda seluruh jasad takan bisa tuk menghindar
Takan bisa tuk menolak dari aib yang menhadang
Hanya bisa diam pasrah tanpa akhir yang tersenyum
Jangan kau nikmati mati
Kau hempaskan hidup
Kau hadirkan aib
Yang membawa duka

Written by:NUTRIKA

GONE WITH ALL TEARS

It's time to wake up but I see like tomorrow the day was not change the pain

It's time for the nice one but there's no happyness when the smile was gone with all tears

To pay all the heartace I will close my eyes with no sound was forced into my head

I'll take all the blame out for what I've been done when the smile was gone with all tears

And I see there's no strength in life

I heard no one scream so loud

And I fell my soul moved from dream

I'll teast all the blood in side

Written by: NUTRIKA

------------------------- End of Ayam's Part ------------------------------------------------------

The Way Back Home

I'm stuck on this trijunction
Try to light this morning
A full of mystery path
Need a solution to get this through

Tired to wait the surely answer
I guess the other dusts had through this
The thing that I ate
Maybe, I just wait my time to run

Gonna go the right way
to go to the ground of mother's feet

And (the truth is)

The boats search for the whispering wind
Short sailing is short age
The long has to fullfil with much of love

The tired of love will be loved at the end of riverside
Lol for passion and sin transformed to grief there

All of the sailors will flow to the same ocean
Without regarding any wind

Begging For Nothing

Empty sheet is sitting between high buildings
Many angels with babies on their hands try to keep on walking
Still many trying to stand

Why all of the buildings keep stomp them
Without greeting or just lips service
Is it 50 penny gives their new breathe

On the shoulders of the building their still hope
To end this drama or change the story

2003-11-02T03:27:00.000+07:00

Given to Choose

Every step that we take is a form
Transmit into a yield
Seems like puzzle
Gathering the forms into next tree

Good shape is my goal
But remember we have choose
The earth or heaven

No End

2003-11-01T19:39:00.000+07:00

LiFe is a dream without end,
Come and Go Like a Faint Sun,

Kemal
Ps: Selanjutnya Pusing.

2003-10-31T22:53:00.000+07:00

BANGSAT!!! BINGUNG MO NGAPAIN, YA UDAH GUE SCAN AJA BAJU GUE

Minggu Kelabu

Bingung!!!!! kalah mulu maen Ps, padahal ama Amatir2 kaya Cheppy, Nopi, Ayam, Ipey, Adang dan gara2 orang yang gue Bold, gue jadi berpuasa Ps selama 1 minggu.

2003-10-28T18:14:00.000+07:00

A Beleaguered Boy

Every student stares to the teacher who gives explanation about the lesson. The teacher explains without gives an attention to the boy who is sitting in the middle row of the class. The boy sits and stares the emptiness. His face shows any emotion. Suddenly, the boy stands and said, 'what do you know about reality of life?' and then, he opens the front side of his bag and turn out something from the bag. 'These are my reality,' he said. He shows his electric bill and other bills. 'I have to pay this with my f***ing own money,' he said. And the boy stands and leaves the classroom. In his way home, a big man greets him and hinds his back.

The boy turned his head and said, 'hey, Mr. Jones.'

The man said, 'hi Jeremy, why don’t you go to the pub?'

The boy said, 'I’m on my way there.'

And then the man offers him a ride, 'so let’s take my car,' and then, both of them ride a car to go to the pub.

The place that they were aimed is a pub; the pub is a home for the boy. In that place, he is working as a helper. He works after he finishes his school time.

After they have arrived in the pub, the boy walks s toward to a truck that brings the boxes full of beer for the pub. The boy lifted every box of the bears. And then he sits in one of the boxes and then Mr. Jones sits next to him.

'Did you have a nice school time this day?' Mr. Jones asked him.'They tough me bullshit this day,' the boy answered, 'they said about the reality that they don’t understand exactly, they are locked by the idiot theory.'

'Ha…ha…ha...' Mr. Jones laughed loudly.

'Why are you laughing?' the boy confused.

Mr. Jones said, 'You should not blame them because I guess it was your fault being different from them.'

The boy said, 'Phew, it just makes me sucks, why they do not accept me as the other and nevertheless I have to accept them as the others for me.'

'Ok, I know you better than them, your transition is different than them because they are raised by money and on the other hand, you are raising your own money.' Said Mr. Jones. 'It is your parents fault, they left you before your time is right.'

The boy said, 'Please Mr. Jones, don’t talk about that evil couple.'

'But last news I heard your father was get caught because robed a granny bag, what a shame.'

The man said. 'And where is your mother now?'

The boy said, 'He is moving out seas and married with an Arabian, maybe she loves a man with a big cock. Therefore, I don’t care about them.'

'You don’t have to be that way, they still your parents,' said the man.

'What kind of parents? Parents who make me have to pay their price.'

'Yeah, it is hard for me to convince you because you are very extreme dislike with them,' said the man while smoking his cigarette.

'I wont hate them, if they were not treated me like an animal,' the boy said and took a cigarette from its pack and continued with said, 'I am not an animal who has an instinct to find his own food.'

'Jones, come here a minute!' a screaming came from the pub office.

'Boss called you, Mr. Jones', the boy said.

'What next old man?' Mr. Jones mumbled and walking to the office, 'Wait a second Jimmy.'

'What is boss going to talk about,' the boy asked.

'You will know later,' said the man as he is walking to the office.

The boy is sitting on the one of the boxes while waiting for Mr. Jones. Unintentionally, The boy is watching Mr. Jones is debating with Boss from the distance. Not for a long time, Mr. Jones is coming out from the office with numb face.

'What’s going on Mr. Jones?' asked the boy.

'It is going to be a bad news for us,' Mr. Jones replied, 'because that damn half Japanese man is going to back to his country, his crime is suspected by police.'

'What! It is impossible, what about us?' the boy shocked and stand from his sit.

'I am not thinking about us, I am just thinking about you,' the man said.

'Why you think about me?' the boy asked again.

'Because I am the assistant of our boss, I will go with him.' The man said, 'If I stay here, the police will arrest me and investigate me where is boss.'

'Can I go with you to Japan?' the boy asked Mr. Jones.

The man stares at the boy and said, 'I am sorry, the boss said he does not want to take a risk by taking you to Japan.'

'Why? Because I am just a little boy and I will be a burden for you,' the boy said abruptly.

'No, it is for your good because in Japan the boss has a lot of enemies and he is a dangerous mob who is surrounded by other dangerous mobs.' The man said by touching the boy head.

'Ok, I understand all of you are tired in caring me, I’ll go find my peace in another place.' The boy shouted and run leaving Mr. Jones.

'Jimmy… Jimmy… wait,' Mr. Jones is trying to chase Jeremy but He is running too fast because trigged by his sadness.

Three days after the debating day, 08.00 in the morning on Monday. The pub looks so quiet that shows the pub has already closed. For about 2 km from the pub, a boy who is known as Jeremy is standing and crying in the edge of the top building shocks a crowd of people. The building is placed in front of the school that Jeremy used to go. He stares at the school and the crowd of people below him. The people is trying to notice him, it is a dangerous to stand there. Several minutes later, police has come and they are trying to temp Jeremy to down with the stairs on side of the building. Jeremy ignores them. Suddenly, a cop has already on the building but Jeremy realizes it.

The police said, 'Hey kid, lets go down.'

'No, I better stay here,' said Jeremy.

'But you are risk yourself, lets go home,' said the cop.

'I am on my way there,' said Jeremy.

'What do you mean?' said the cop.

Jeremy said, 'This is not my place, I am not accepted in every corner of this world and finally, I have found the better way to find my immortal peace. Bye sir, thanks for remind me.'

Unexpectedly, Jeremy closes his eyes and jumps to the crowd of the people.

'Kid…kid…hey…' the cop is yelling but it is too late to stop him because Jeremy has go to the place that he wanted to go. His body is lying on the street in front of the building and looks so peace.

2003-10-28T02:05:00.000+07:00

Forever in Lie to Her

She is hiding somewhere
She does not know I am fading
However I know it is not her idea to hide
It’s my mistake for being so different outside
My heart would not let her go
But my ego
It will be a short time if she were here
It is forever feeling to forgive myself
Would she know me there?
If I did not get together in this tree

Too Strong

The great speaks my path
He is the owner of fact
Pain, happiness just simple illustrations
My life is easy going with His words
Too strong for me in breaking His words
It is impossible for me as a dot to clash against My Pen

Timing is Everything

2003-10-26T18:04:00.000+07:00

A clock is ticking before and after
Exhausted, but it doesn't
Unstable, it's constant
Glorious, It moves toward
Death, Immortal
Fighting it is useless
So lets live with it and temp it to be our friend

2003-10-24T21:49:00.000+07:00

A wise man said put your past away
But when you stuck and regret
And faith that you don't want to face it
Comes to you
You wanna go back to the place you were wrong
Either do I
Either do they
Sorry, if I may to conclude that everyone has the same thinking to walk back
I PROMISE YOU, YOU CAN KILL ME IF YOU DON'T THINK OF THAT EVEN IT ONLY ONCE IN YOUR LIFETIME...

2003-10-22T23:39:00.000+07:00

Grunge These Days for a Better Tomorrow
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Spoiled makes us happy
Imagining, sitting on the King's chair is nice
Fighting on the street seems silly
Dear, I don't like your advice

Our, different of them
We get my own way to pass the deep dark path
It doesn't mean I don't want to be like them
Cause life like a math

Cobain, Vedder, and many more taught us lot of things
Is not because they are famous
But the way of they think
It so influencing us

2003-10-21T01:11:00.000+07:00

Setuju gue kata si enon yg namanya cinta tuh permainan. Tapi klo gue bilang lebih tepatnya permainan judi, dan taruhannya adalah hati (perasaan). Apabila kita menang hati kita akan berbunga dan apabila kalah, yaaa, mau ga mau kita harus siapkan perasaan satu lagi. Yaitu, sakit hati.

2003-10-16T18:02:00.000+07:00

Never Tired Goddess
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In 1959, God spoke the greatest thing for me. At that time, she never realized that she will be a super angel for me. In 1981, she took "a gift" from the Maker. I know she was happy and going to take care "the gift." "The gift" is learning how to be his goddess. Too much pain that I gave and I know I will give her more, but she keeps on smilling to inform me that it was wrong. And if she should angry, it would be the anger with true love. If I have to write down her best perform for me, I have to spent all of the ink on earth. I know someday, if I should be a mate for my goddess. Me and my goddess should love our gift.

2003-10-15T17:35:00.000+07:00

Unreachable, Even by Sophisticated Transportation
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There's a place where people sing more graceful than birds
All of the hosts is smilling on the ceiling of the opposite
Can you hear the snakes cry, said one
It because love leads us, said his mate

Surrender now is useless
Because we have met the power directly
It for forever
So shame, we only live twice

2003-10-12T13:13:00.000+07:00

Patriot
by Pearl Jam

And the rivers shall open for the righteous...
And the rivers shall open for the righteous...
And the rivers shall open for the righteous someday...

I was walking with my brother,
And he wondered, oh how I am.
Said what I believe in my soul
Ain't what I see with my eyes,
And there's no turning back this time.

I am a patriot, and I love my country,
Because my country is all I know.
Wanna be with my family,
People who understand me.
I got no place else to go.

I was walking with my girlfriend.
She looked so fine, I said
"Baby, what's on your mind?"
Said I want to run like the lions
Released from their cages...
Released from the rages
Burning in my soul tonight.

I am a patriot, and I love my country,
Because my country is all I know.

And I ain't no communist,
And I ain't no socialist,
And I ain't no capitalist,
And I ain't no imperialist,
And I ain't no democrat,
Sure ain't no republican either,
I only know one party,
And that is freedom.
I am...I am...I am...

I am a patriot, and I love my country,
Because my country is all I know.

And the rivers shall open for the righteous,
And the rivers shall open for the righteous,
And the rivers shall open for the righteous someday...
Someday...someday...

2003-10-09T02:04:00.000+07:00

Beautiful is Distance Away

People who meet say you are perfect
The man who meet you will love you
First times with you made me fly
Two times with you made me blue

No one just like my dream
In that dream you are beautiful
In fact, Phew, pathetic,
or is it the dream itself is not beautiful

If that so, I guess no one or thing is beautiful
even dream

2003-10-06T01:30:00.000+07:00

Doni : "Cry, klo kata lu misalnya gue minta cinta dari Dian Sastro, dikasih ngga?"
Cuxry : "Ya ngga lah."
Doni : "Lho kok, berarti sombong dong dia."
Cuxry : "Sombong gimana? ya engga lah lu ngasih dia apa? trus lagian dia ga sombong lah orang kan klo ga kenal maka tak sayang, lagian lu tuh dapet sesuatu bukan dari apa yang lu minta tapi dari yang lu beri."
Doni : "Susah yah cry klo misalnya kita ngejar seseorang yang kita suka?"
Cuxry : "Ah, payah amat lu selagi usaha pasti ada hasil, yang susahnya tuh pas kita dapet hasil yang mengecewakan. Kita bakalan susah untuk bersifat ikhlas baik itu menerima atau memberi."
Doni : "Cry, gue jadi bagian penting lho di organisasi kampus gue."
Cuxry : "Bagus, tapi ingat emang baik jadi orang yang penting tapi yang lebih penting Don jadi orang yang baik

2003-10-03T22:09:00.000+07:00

">LIFE IS LIKE A DICK, CUZ IF IT GETS HARD SO FUCK IT!!!

2003-09-17T12:39:00.000+07:00

Beauty of Being Myself

I wrote a poem without meaning (for you)
The theme is full of nothing (for you)
I am glad you ignore it
Cause I do not want you to know it

Amen, you are not me
I feel so blessed to be me

2003-09-14T14:53:00.000+07:00

welcome back to life : "many people will walk in and out of your life,but only true friends will leave a footprints in your heart,even a small star shines on the darkness,see you soon.."

2003-09-05T19:48:00.000+07:00

"Mother, Father, Sister, Brother and the people I love"
"I shame to say that I'm too longing, I need all of you here"

2003-09-01T13:28:00.000+07:00

"Brian Cachia"

2003-08-29T21:16:00.000+07:00

"Please, meet my mentor"

2003-08-24T02:18:00.000+07:00

For Fun and Living

Those
Motherfuckers
Trying to find some pussies to be fucked
In that black deep hole for the dick
They think every bitch is a whore
Well, some assholes never learn
That maybe they do not need to fuck but some tits to be licked
What the fuck son of bitches are trying to discover
But, it is a good idea to discover the mystery of sex
Sex for living

I am Knowing Better but Getting Weaker and Slower

One thing divides into many and creates much more. Who walk slowly will get the first in getting the truth and the opposite who get hurry will stick and turn back and notice the slower is in good spirits. The faster meets the stones first and clashes them, and then he sees the slower is walking carefully after him. The slower keeps smiling and the faster looks so drained. The slower walks toward him and smiling and then he walks once more on the same road, the faster becomes the slower and require a time to heal his wounds.

Long Road

We all live the long road. Can I home?

Sekali lagi saya terjerumus ke dalam kestatisan hidup yang menyebabkan kejenuhan. Lucunya lagi hal menjemukan itu disebabkan oleh suatu hal yang tidak pantas saya alami beberapa waktu kemarin. Terlalu cepat mungkin roda ini berputar atau terlalu lambat saya mengikuti perputaran roda ini. Bingung, percuma tapi kalau saya bingung. Kenapa itu percuma? Saya pikir mungkin jika terus bingung hanya akan menyebabkan depresi. Kebingungan itu mungkin akan menyebabkan saya malas melakukan perubahan yang seharusnya dilakukan. Satu hal penting lagi, jika saya telah mengalami kebingungan dan keputus asaan akan muncul hal yang paling membuat saya menjadi anti sosial karena telah mengkerdilkan jiwa saya. Jiwa kerdil itu akan menghadapkan saya pada kebuntuan baru yaitu tidak adanya tolenrasi yang irasional yang terselubungi oleh kelicikan dan katidak sehatan saya dalm menjalani kompetisi kehidupan.

2003-08-19T18:03:00.000+07:00

My Park

44 Old Years Man

Made mistakes
And brings it to their Lovely Park
The park was beginning to be unfertile
The park seems so broken up
Cracking up
The park needs some DDT
Needs some cures
Cause being coursed by 44 Old Years Man
What a shame,
He builds
He breaks
What a shame,
He is the 44 Old Years Man
What a nice,
He is still our 44 Old Years Man
Till’ our Lovely Park find its way
Till’ our Lovely Park is helpless
Till’ it’s over

My Link of My Maker

Huge me like a baby
Watch me rigidly
Paint me with full of colors
Teach me like a monk
The bad wheatear on its way
But means noting for my everything
I begin to cry
Cause I see my heart do fake smile
Be strong, my shape on earth

My Other Plants in the Park

One is in transition, and another is very green

Myself, Around Me, My own Misery

Look at me
You could see it, don’t you?
You could walk from high
And step to the edge
You still can see my body
Why don’t you walk to my face with an inch apart us?
See closely
You wont know anything about me inside

A Leaf

A leaf is hanging around on the strong stem
But the wind always tries to make she falls
I live in on the other stem
Can do nothing cause the wind is too strong
However, all the leaves on this tree will fall
And when my leaf falls,
I’ll wait my moment to fall to live in the other tree
With her
Keep it green my leaf

Like a Link

A boy walking naked to the fake
Master of fake makes him becomes a man
He knows a thing or a person, which relates with one thing
And what he knows relates with the other
And never stop till end
One day, he said abruptly, “what am I?”
And the writer said, you are a link like the other

If Life is Like a Child

A child plays in the park
Running, yelling, looks happy
But what happen next,
He falled
And he is injured
Whose fault?
He is the one who is fault
He didn't play carefully
He was careless

2003-08-18T12:08:00.000+07:00

The Hardest Thing to Do

It is not being a handsome or beautiful
It is not being a rich or famous
It is not being a strong or great
it is not being you

But it is about a person who can accepts, faces, gives every thing with arms wide open
That is the one
And the only one

2003-08-18T10:42:00.000+07:00

Static Flows

Walking in this morning
Seems every thing is samming
Side by side is no different
Ennui is the only differennt

Ennui grows bigger than me
Stomps his feet on me
I can't breathe
I just can sit

At least, I can write
On a sheet of white
Enjoying this time, but what!
I am runing of mind and white

2003-08-17T11:58:00.000+07:00

---AWAL, SEPANJANG DAN AKHIR PERJALANAN---

Saya menangis di awal hidup
Dunia pun tertawa
Tangisan dan keceriaan sepanjang saya berjalan
Di akhir perjalanan
Dunia menangis dan saya tertawa